Wednesday, August 17, 2005
Today is kind of mundane, nothing special really happened. I might seem to be quite alright from the outside but still, deep down within me, a sense of longing for something I've lost, will occasionally strike me. I think I'd better not reveal too much about it but instead, I think I shall use a song from simple plan to continue this post, and to tell my story...
Everytime
It was three AM when you woke me up
And we jumped in the car and drove as far as we could go
Just to get away
We talked about our lives
Until the sun came up
And now I'm thinking about
How I wish I could go back
Just for one more day
One more day with you
Everytime I see your face
Everytime you look my way
It's like it all falls into place
And everything feels right
Ever since you walked away
You left my life in disarray
All I want is one more day
All I need is one more day with you
When the car broke down
We just kept walkin along
Til we hit this town
There was nothing there at all
But that was all okay
We spent all our money on stupid things
But if I looked back now, I'd probably give it all away
Just for one more day
One more day with you
Everytime I see your face
Everytime you look my way
It's like it all falls into place
Everything feels right
Ever since you walked away
My life's been in disarray
All I need is one more day with you
Now I'm sittin here, like we used to do
I think about my life and how now there's nothing I won't do
Just for one more day
One more day with you
Everytime I see your face
Everytime you look my way
It's like it all falls into place
Everything feels right (Everything feels right)
Everytime I hear your name
Everytime I feel the same
It's like it all falls into place
Everything feels right
One more day
Just one more day
It's all I need, just one more day with you
iFLEW @ 11:22 PM
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
This few days have been really slacking for me, haven't really achieve or complete any studies so far this week. Except maybe for GP, went for an extra lesson yesterday from 4 to 6 pm, sure was tiring, but somehow it turned out more interesting than I thought. The teacher was very funny, kept instilling crapy jokes into the lesson. Really had a great time in GP..haha..and yet I still learnt something from the lesson. hmmm...guess its really the first time I actually learnt something out of a GP lesson. After school, I didn't really do much study at all though I know I should be, but somehow I was kind of tired so I read a book instead, is halfway through it now, than went to sleep after a quiet time all the way until today, woke up at 6.30 am.
Today was kind of a fun day for me, though its a bit taxing on my mind, but its worth it, at least I can be exempted from school. I spent the whole morning in CMPB doing a computer test for pilot selection. The test was around 5 hours long and true indeed, I think it tested every aspect a pilot needs. ..hmmm...first test was some instrumental test where I was required to learn the techniques of a few measuring instruments in the cockpitin a given time, than apply it on various scenarios. To me, that test was kind of easy so I hope I won't make too many mistakes in it. I think maybe I shall just name a few if not I will need to take a long time to list out everything..haha... ..hmmm..I think another unique test was the one where I was supposed to keep a constantly moving cross in the middle of the screen with my legs, controlling a pedal to control its horizontal movements, and the hands, controlling a joystick to maneuver its vertical movements..haha..sounds kind of tough har? But actually its not very hard at all, at least to me, I managed to coordinate my hands and legs properly so that test didn't really give me much problems but after a while it became kind of tiring and boring going through the same motion. In the 5 hours, on the whole, though I did fumble in some parts of it, it was quite a fun test to take. Really hope I can make it through and become a full-time pilot in the Air Force, to soar and reign in the sky.
Anyway, I guessed that's about all for today, better not stay too long on the net today, have to start studying if not I won't be able to fufil my study hours. So, until next time..bye...
iFLEW @ 4:13 PM
Thursday, August 11, 2005
After three days of break, school finally restarted again. Man, today sure is a tiring day, can't even stay awake in the morning. First lesson is GP, but because of the math test later, I kind of skipped the whole lesson to do a last minute revision in the library but somehow halfway through it, tiredness crept in and suffused my body so I took a short nap. Wasted something like ten minutes i presummed, but anyway, the test is totally screwed, made hell lot of stupid and careless mistakes.
Anyway, the main topic among my friends today is the match helded on monday. Haha..my friends were all blaming me for not playing, but the thoughts of what happened that day kind of turned me off, waited for so long to find out that I'm actually jacked for no apparent reason, kind of cool huh. ...but anyway, I feel kind of sorry for not playing alongside my teammates on monday, heard they had quite a tough match..hmmm...maybe because I'm not around that's why..hahaha.. Actually personally, I have really missed the days where my number 4 jersey soar and reign the field with me. The times we celeberate and shed our tears together are simply memoriable.
..hmmm...anyway i guess i shlouldn't spend too long on this thing, prelims are around the corner, really have to start studying soon...so maybe shall write something more meaningful next time..hmmm...maybe from some books I just read recently..haha..really got to go..so tata..
iFLEW @ 5:24 PM
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
It has been a long time since i have signed the euthanasia declaration for this blog, leaving it to deteriorate without any postings. But somehow, miraculously, this blog manage to survive, so i guess maybe i could just take some time to rejuvenate this dying blog and bring it back to life.
..hmmm...actually a series of events happened over these few months, because of rugby, i feel i have kind of neglect my friends, studies, cell group and God. Now that rugby has ceased, things are getting so much better now, my results are improving and i'm now serving so much more than before in the cell group and for God. I'm kind of glad for the improvements but still, occasionally, I felt that I've lost certain friendships from certain people. I feel I had put their importance in my heart on the back burner because of rugby and now, they, or maybe its just her only, seem so distant from me, no longer sharing a proximity with each other anymore. I guess maybe this is the only way i will learn to appreciate. Frankly speaking, I really really missed those times when we hang out together, exchange SMSes almost everyday, share secrets and so on..haha..its just so fun...but sad to say, I only realise this...now. Haha..how i miss those good old days...when we are so close to each other.. :)
Anyway, since this is the genesis of my new blog, i guess i should start it off with jubilant instead of having it to sentimental...hmmm...yes, just a few days ago, i attended the festival of praise with my cousins. Haha..no doubt, it is really a great event, the presence of God was superb and the sight of thousands of christians being so gung ho for God is simply great. On top of all that, just like the icing on a cake, the experience of attending the event as a guest is simply so great as well. There is not a need to queue up and the best thing of all, got a seat few rows away from stage where all the pastors are. Furthermore, the opportunity of praising and worshiping God together with my cousins are just simply so enjoyable, guess this would be the most memoriable reunion we ever had so far...really love them and sure gonna miss them dearly with their departure tomorrow.
Woah...just a little time and I've written so much already...haha..hope whoever is reading is won't be bored by it, anyway, i think i'm just gonna stop here, got to go back to my revision soon...so that's all folks...bye for now.. :)
iFLEW @ 1:27 AM
Thursday, October 07, 2004
okie..hmm..haven't really been doing anything about this blog..can't really help it coz of the freaking promos.. haiz..but anyway its already halfway through it and..hmm.. i think i'm only left with just one more paper to go..so since then, i will just take a break and fill in something for this blog..
hmm..today is chinese, 1st thing in the morning is paper 1,essay writing.. haiz..don't really know whether i've interpreted the question correctly but nevertheless, still manage to write amost 2 pages of it..haha..first time in my whole entire life.. really have to thank God for it..today is one of the few rare cases where i'm able to write a chinese essay so fluently..
after that was part 2 of the paper..have to put down our dictionary on the floor..haiz.. kinda stoopid i think, should have just let us use it throughout the whole paper what.. but anyway..hmmz..as usual, 1st 5 questions of my paper are left unattempted.. ya..and the rest, should be ok i hope..
after the papers, we have some photo taking session, which i find it a total waste of my time..i think i have better things to do rather than standing infront of a freaking camera..but anyway thank God that it's a short session..hmmz..yupp..so i think i will just stop here for today..got more things to do than this..
iFLEW @ 1:04 PM
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
You drew near on the day i called on You, and said, "Do not fear!"
Lamentations 3:57
another word from God gotten recently during my quiet time..
promos are coming real soon..hmm.. 2 more days to the official opening of the big day..haiz.. and naturally, everyone will be freaked out, me included of course..thinking about staying in that school for one more extra year sure is scary, can't wait to get out of it..
but somehow, God knew about my trouble and gave me this verse recently just this week.. wanting me not to fear..hmm..i've been getting this kinda rhema word for quite some time already.. so i think God really wants me to get rid of the fear within me and yupp..i did yesterday night.. lifting all my troubles, worries and fear up to God..and everything has been taken away from me.. i'm no longer fearing for i know God is with me all the times and has assured me that there's nothing for me to fear about..thank God..amen..
iFLEW @ 3:48 PM
Friday, September 24, 2004
hmm..have been off for quite some time in updating my blog due to my stoopid school schedue..haiz.. come to think about it, time really flies like a bullet, one moment i was complaining about the orientation, next, before i know it, promos is just around the corner..just one more week to go.. seriously thinking, i'm not feeling very optimistic about this coming examination..don't really know why, but there's always a fear in me about this promos..hmm..maybe i guess i'm just thinking too much for God has been telling me not to fear.. this rhema verse from Him has been reminding me again and again, but yet, i'm still feeling abit insecure.. maybe i guess i should meditate more on His words..
For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
2 Timothy 1:7
i think all i need now is just a boost, and i believe somehow, God will just fill me with strenght to overcome all my fears and the examination..haiz..how i wish i could do my papers in church, where the precence of God is the strongest, where there will be peace in every part of the building..but anyway, God is always with me :)..no matter where i go, i will feel His tangible precence falling down upon me, where i will find strength, joy and most importantly, peace in my mind in what i'm doing..hmm..that's why i my recent chemistry common test got into the 7th position out of the entire cohort..indeed God has really made me the top and not the bottom, the head and not the tail..
oh yea..talking about today, hmm..i didn't go to school at all..haha..told my mum i want to stay at home to study for my math test tomorrow but actually i just want to give myself a break..haha..but anyway, since i'm at home, i did spend some time on math..with God, i believe i will be able to overcome it tomorrow..hmm..so as usual the highlights of the day would still be the children's church service..today's service was kind of touching as i can really feel the precence of God during the worship, although i'm doing the corresboard thing, i could still feel the strong precence of God coming into the room..after this, we had lesson as usual and the main gist of today's lesson is on the obedience for God..and something really struck me..that our purpose here is to serve God, and we can only do that by obeying God..ultimately, its God's will that will be done, not ours..so yupp..i guess this is really a good message to all who haven't put God as first priority..so yupp..its getting late already and i guess i will just stop here..God is a good God..
iFLEW @ 12:55 AM
